It started with Series 1 with eight cards scattered around my small little apartment bedroom in Manhattan Beach, CA. Cards hidden in my coat pockets, cards taped behind my TV, cards underneath my bed. Cards written ever so poetically by the man I was about to fall in love with. I knew I would love him, I just didn’t know I knew it at the time.
It was then followed by Series 2 with seven cards. Then Series 3 with six cards. The first card in Series 3 was titled “Fearless Cindi” and was placed in the one place he knew I would find it. In the bathroom, on top of the toilet paper! I remember that day vividly. I had a horrible day at work, one of those rare days when work made me feel a little bit worthless. But as I read his words, I knew…I just knew:
“There’s no shame, no weakness, in walking through life with someone. Especially when, as you’ve already proven, it’s something you can already do independently. In fact, I think it takes real strength to let someone else in on your journey. To share everything you hold dear with another force entirely out of your control, and realize that they will have an impact on what you create. To realize that it will take a level of collaboration, compromise, and commitment to squeeze two independent joint visions into a singular blueprint within which to build. To know this, and not fear it, I think shows a level of maturity and fearlessness that is not commonly found, or even understood.
We don’t always know the answers…and we don’t always have the details. But I know with you, I’m for once not afraid. You’ve given me a piece of your courage. Your fearlessness. Because I know in addition to holding each other close, we hold each other up. Because I know that everything we could ever possibly encounter…everything that would go wrong…wouldn’t undermine or sway that one constant that we’ve both given to each other. You and I are Us and We. I Love You…Me.”
I knew as I finished reading with tears of joy streaming that I was to be the luckiest girl ever. I’ve found my life partner and I knew it from that day forward.
Series 8 was after a dinner at Rovers on 5/8/09. Series 8 was one “card”, or book if you will, laying on my bed after we returned home. It was a story told in pictures of all the other Series’, from 1-7 and the very last page was his proposal:
“I’ve known for awhile now that we’re meant to be together. As soon as I’ve known, I’ve never doubted. I know I can be wordy sometimes, and it can take what seems like forever to get out all the words I mean to say just to convey one thought. Being that this will be one of the most important things I’ll ever say in my life, it’s been taking me a long while to get all the words out. Every card in this countdown has been my attempt at telling it all to you, and it’s still not enough to match the immensity of what you mean to me. From Series 1 through Series Forever, I will never stop trying to ensure you know exactly how I feel, and know exactly what I’m thinking. Cindi, I love you and want to promise forever to you. Will you marry me?”
To my husband, my everything, my forever: Happy two years anniversary. Thank you for giving me all that I’ve ever dreamed of in life…You!